True Story: My Natural Hair Does NOT make me feel attractive

Let me start by saying I have always been “natural” I was born and raised in Southern California where a perm/relaxer was not necessary. I never did a big chop, but I did have heat damage from pressing and flat ironing my hair. I decided to stop putting heat on my hair and jump on the band-wagon of becoming a naturalista. Only thing these YouTubers didn’t tell me was 4 out of 3 times ( yes as a teacher I did that math correctly) your hair WILL NOT come out the way you expected it to. This is stressful for someone who doesn’t have an hour and a half in the mornings to retwist/wash/detangle/ blow-dry their hair in the morning.

I started to have doubts about my choice to go natural and started reflecting on my pressed hair days Here was a wedding I attended with my hair flat ironed

I feel so attractive when my hair is pressed. There are days my hair doesn’t come out and I have cried because I was soooo frustrated with my hair. This whole “love the hair you were born with” blah blah blah, yes I get it. One should, yet I also believe do what makes you feel your best. Now as a black child of God my hair is so versatile, it can do many things. Now as a frugal educator, that comes at a price.  One does not have the money to buy a plethora of products hoping they work on their hair. *side eye*

All in all I enjoy when my hair does come out, ( which isn’t often) but I do not feel as attractive with my natural hair as do when it is pressed. Unfortunately, living in south Florida doesn’t help. The humidity won’t allow my hair to be great. So I just take every day as a gift that I have hair.                                                   Help my hair Lord. lol